Hello guys! :) Finally, I have moved on to: http://milkywhitelady.tumblr.com
But I'm still going to post some life's tidbits here. :) So yes, thank you for the readers and bloggers!
Friday, September 24, 2010
The Geek Chic.
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Perfectly Imperfect Life.
Back in my freshmen and sophomore years, I always thought that my life was perfect. I used to assume that everything's going the way things should be. But, believe me, nothing's perfect. And my life has proved it. I thought I have everything, from good grades to good boyfriend to good family to good life. Can you spell it: P-E-R-F-E-C-T? But look, something's missing. Right? I realized that nothing's absolutely perfect. I don't have the perfect bikini body, the perfect angelic face, not even the perfect elite life. Yes, I thought everything's perfect not until I realized that I don't have my friends. Wait! Omit the word "my". Funny as you think. But, what is life without friends, right? What is high school without fun? I've never even dared to drink or sip a bit of alcohol. (Well you know, I sometimes wanted to, but thinking about how alcohol can affect my behavior. Geez. The hell I care.) I haven't smoke, not even a try. I never dared to go home late with friends. I never even had the chance to take college entrance exams with a bunch of friends not even the chance to submit applications with them. I haven't gone with them to movies. I had no sleep over memories 'coz I haven't experience one. You know what, there's so much more to discover about me. I exactly know the feeling of being alone. I found real friends when I reached my senior year. It's like, I've wasted all my time on my high school years concentrating on one single thing or passion alone. All this years, I wanted to feel loved and happy with a bunch of friends. I wanted to feel the care of TRUE friends. I do believe that they're rare to find. I do believe that life is nothing without friends. I'm not Anti-Social or anything. Maybe, I'm still the old fashioned teenager. I would always choose to stay at home than enjoy my weekends with friends. I would rather watch movies alone or with my auntie than watch one with them. I know, there's so much more to remember on your teenage years than mine-aside from occasional heartaches. I bet you're going to tell me that I'm pretty KJ and sarcastic. But, I'm actually not. Maybe, I'm too picky with my friends. I'll avoid them if I don't like what they did or said. I'm always the opinionated girl who would always say what's on her mind. I know how it feels to date a guy. SWEAR. I've experienced that! I know how to heal a broken heart. I know how to surprise a guy and to make him cry because of happiness. But for now, since, I'm not in a relationship with someone, I was able to manage my relationships with my college friends, my new found circle of friends. I was able to appreciate people more. To keep my mouth shut when needed. To speak my mind when I have to. To laugh with all the stupid jokes and mistakes! Now, I feel glad that my life isn't perfect. And I would rather not want it to be one. |
Saturday, August 7, 2010
This must have been love.
He has always been the reason of my pain. WE used to talk a lot on the phone this past few weeks. We had a lot of petty fights. Yes, we do fight A LOT. We've been to a lot of good times and bad times. He has been my crying shoulder when my world is falling apart. He has been the best boyfriend(never mind the looks) ever despite of all the pains he have caused me. But things aren't really perfect. We just can't be perfect. We just can't be the same old "Karl and Tinie" who used to be patient with each other. We're both struggling to be with each other. We're both fighting for each other. We're actually doing it better this time. But still, the pain never went away. But we're madly, deeply in love? What's the point of giving up? Right? There are also times when we actually want to give up. Why? Because we're together for three years and we haven't seen each other again. Our relationship has always been in a rocky state, that no matter how much we try to give up and surrender, we would always be fighting and fighting and fighting for each other. We would always be running towards each others' arms while saying how much we wanted to stay together. We actually had each other through the test of time. We've been to a lot of trials. I told you. You don't know how painful it was for me to keep everything as a secret. You don't know how many liters of tears that fall each time we fight. You don't know how patient we are not to run away from home just to see each other. You don't now everything. We actually wanted the whole world to know everything about us. But this is our relationship. It's not between everyone and I but it's always between HIM and ME. Karl and Tinie. We could have been the perfect couple. We could have been very much, madly, deeply in love. Sounds redundant? That's how love is. Redundant yet it's true. If I'm going to be questioned why do I feel this way after all the pains, then probably, you would assume that Love is reaaaaalllly BLIND. But Love isn't blind after all. It's just that I know how to forgive and I've accepted all his flaws that's why I love him. Now, tears are really falling. How I wish, I'm outside the house while the rain keeps falling on my head. This reminds me of the lyrics of the song: " Raindrops keep falling on my head...". I'm not really sure about the title. But I think, it is already the title of the song. What else can I say? It's not the raindrops that keep on falling. It's the tears that keep my eyes on turning red. I know words are not enough to tell them everything. I know we cannot go back to the times when we started having that puppy love. I know things are very different now. What else can I say? Things are over now. We could have been the perfect couple. We could have been PERFECTLY TOGETHER. |
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
Never assume unless otherwise stated.
Please don't make me feel special then ignore me afterwards. Please. It's killing me twister. It's really killing me. :| Labels: twister. |
Saturday, July 17, 2010
Will this give me new a found lover?
It was Thursday afternoon when I met this guy with his friends at a local fastfood chain inside our school. Yes, there on the carpark. Here goes the story: We lined up at the counter to order our foods when my friend "Roselle" saw her schoolmate back in high school on the other lane. Her schoolmate was with his group of friends which includes this cute guy (twister boy). He's such a cutie that I can't resist. Well, even my friend said so. Then after that, we were introduced to each other. Say hi-s and hello-s and exchanged names not numbers. I was so kilig that when I went upstairs with my food, I make kwento to my friends about him. I was really smiling when I told Mart about him. Haha! And I wasn't really expecting that I'll be seating to the table right in front of him. Geez. He actuaaaalllllyyyy has a nice smile with brown dyed hair. Okay, I was crushing on him. Just a BIT. k? We were eating na when I noticed that we can't help but stare at each other then smile while eating. My friends were all laughing and making fun of their stories while we're eating. But the two of us just can't help staring. We're both staring blankly with each other then smiling afterwards. What the hell is wrong with us? :)) Then, because of that he made a mess out of his food. I was really laughing hard not because that happened but because we we're eating the same food. hahaha! He said sorry anyway, but he's so cute when he laughed. Yes, I just can't resist. That's probably the end of that day. I was like wanting to look for him after. LOL. Kidding. But we don't know where he was. So, what's next? I don't think I found a new lovey dovey. Whatever. But waaaaittttt, I didn't notice that we almost crossed our ways the next day after! Geez. |
Friday, July 16, 2010
AB Debate Parliament Screening day.
Today is the last day of the Screening for the ABDP (AB Debate Parliament). I confirmed for the Friday schedule despite the fact that I'm going to watch the Unrbandub tonight. I know I didn't enjoy my day but I am so freakin' excited for the results of the screening. Okay, I was hoping to pass. I was really hoping. So, I hope my excitement won't give me false hopes. okay? Geeez. |
Thursday, July 15, 2010
The first recollection day of 1CA4.
Today is our first ever recollection day at the Med Auditorium. The program was really enlightening. There a lots of songs to sing and dance. I actually enjoyed it. It's not boring at all. What can I say? Being a Thomasian is a one in a million prize! |
Failures.
My life is currently on a a FAILURE. |
Sunday, July 4, 2010
frustrations and many other frustrations.
Hello best friend. :) It's been a week since I visited you. Now, I'm in trouble again. :( I'm in tears. :( I bet, you can feel that. I actually have lots of friends to open up to, but I feel like I just can't do it that way. I'm either lost or in a state of confusion. I'm still reminiscing the things we used to do together. You know what, I acted like I don't really care, that everything's okay. But it's really bugging me now. :( For 35 months, I never thought that we would end up like this. That he wouldn't even bother to listen to me. That he wouldn't even care whether the story/ message is true. I felt like I've never been trusted by him. I felt betrayed. :( What's wrong with him? It seems like he don't know me at all. It seems that there was nothing between us before. :( I really feel bad about it. :( I'm bursting out in tears. |
Saturday, July 3, 2010
Nothing's working.
It's July already. I've been into a rocky situation lately. I was like shattered and broke down into tears. Whatever it is, I know, God's Will will prevail. :| |
Friday, June 25, 2010
The amazing Mr.Almost-Perfect.
I'm now in college life, right? So, I guess, it's not wrong or bad to look at some boys naman. Anyway, on my first few days in college, I didn't notice anyone in the class except for this guy who looks really mysterious. He's like my ex for so many ways. Let's list down. 1. He really looks mysterious. 2. He's quiet. REALLY QUIET in class. 3. He would only smile if I joke around or I initiate some talks. Those are just some. But, do you know what caught my attention? It was our Theology class when we're told to introduce our seatmates to the class. He was introduced to the class as the "former student council president" and he also graduated with honors. So, I was like, "really?" then, "He is it.", with a smile on my face. :) After that he left a mark on my mind. For some unexpected reasons, we were together one afternoon after the freshmen walk started. We sent Dalle to the terminal, so that, she would be able to go home SAFE. :) After that, we talked about a lot of things. I'm so random during that time,. I even asked him about his family, his former school (since we're both Josephians, but he's from another school, not related to ours), his workshops on ABS-CBN and many other things. I find him quite interesting you know. Now, it's like I wanted to study harder 'cause he's really intelligent. I don't wanna feel inferior to him. He's not my type because I used to be in love with bad boys, but I found him as a real friend. I'm not after the competition. I just want to prove that I can do something more as much as his. Well, goodbye good-girl-gone-bad image! Hello little miss studious AGAIN :) |
Thursday, June 24, 2010
Culture change for College Days.
Last time, I blogged about entering college life and all those things that's bugging me, right? This time, I'm going to blog about what's happening to me in our university. First few days are really fun. I met new friends and new people. I even became interested in different school organizations. I met the CASAns and every Thomasian, my friends are introducing to me. It's pretty fun to meet them and I feel like I belong. :) Dalle Sanchez is my first friend there. So, nowadays, we used to call each other"SUPER FRIEND" 'cause we have a lot in common. Then, the next few days, I've been with Michael Oriel, Jenzine Alcanatara, Mary Justine Clamar, and my "ULTIMATE FRIEND" John Francis Antonio. Few days after, I've been close with "FRIEN-NEMY" Ajay Mercado. He's the cutie type. Actually,I can clutch my arms with his without any meaning, just friends!:) That's how we are. I never thought that I would be close to them. I learned to cross the streets of Lacson, instead of Dapitan because of them. Another week came and here's the most awaited freshmen walk that happened last Wednesday. Because of that walk, I was able to talk to Jan Michael Borja whom I refer to as "PARTNER". We sent Dalle to Park and Ride because she don't know how to go home. :| Anyway, freshmen walk is really fun. We walked under the Arch of the century while cheering with our respective faculty. Everyone's so fun to be with. We took a lot of pictures together and posted some on FB. Then few of us, went to party with the other Thomasians! :) So, it's really an awesome week for us. I met a lot of people, and eventually learned to socialize with everybody! :) |
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
Ace that UNO. You're now a Tomasino.
I will enter the college world soon. Yes, I'll be a Tomasian soon. But still, something's bugging me. So, here it goes:
Okay, I have lots of questions in mind but whatever they are, I wanted to have fun and enjoy the remaining four years of studying. I want to have a good career in the future. And I surely know that everybody wants that anyway. Now, I have a long way ahead. So, why feel so nostalgic? :) Everything's new, every person has changed. So, just enjoy the ride. |
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
Why does insecurity hits almost everybody?
Lately, news from the internet and different networking sites annoy me much. The news is all about the pretty face teen inside the famous Pinoy Big Brother house, Tricia Santos. Her immaturity became a big deal to everybody specifically, to the consistent viewers of the said reality show. So, when will people ever learn to accept someone? In my own opinion, it's not right to judge and keep on judging someone you don't know personally. I've been once on her shoes and I understand the feeling of being left out, misjudged and misinterpreted. I don't think she's there just for you to judge her or watch every step or action she makes. She's there because she wanted to prove something for herself. We're not related or anything, I just feel sorry for her when people talk behind her back. As for a teenager, I think, she's still in the stage of maturity. Can you still remember that you are once acting like an immature little kid on your high school years? Basically, she's still adjusting and she's still trying to be herself even when others are there criticizing her. Anyway, it's fine to criticize but don't overdo that. Because when you do, you're like being a weird bitch crying around 'coz of insecurity. Well, I'm not saying that she deserves to win the title but nevertheless, she deserves to be respected. Just saying. |
Sunday, April 11, 2010
Cold summer days at the City of Pines.
Summer is usually a sizzling hot season for everyone. But, unlike everyone else, I wanted my summer to be as cold or freezy as I want! So, my pretty auntie bought two tickets to Baguio. In my surprise, I immediately said, "Yes! I will come with you!", before mom allowed me. So, at around past 12 midnight we went to the bus station and along our journey ahead, it's like I'm freezing na. It's super cold inside the bus. Everybody's asleep but still, I was able to read my book even when the lights are turned off. haha! I did random stuffs just to ease the cold feeling. Boring, yes. On our first day there, tita and I went strolling around the Mines View Park. I was able to ave my picture taken with a dog. Then, with a white horse, and an igorot. :) I had so much funnnnn! After that, I took a lot of pictures of the streets. We went straight to Good Shepherd to buy some delicacies, then, went back to the transient house we've checked in earlier. In the afternoon, we went malling at SM Baguio and boating at Burnham Park. At night, we went to the Baguio Cathedral and attended the mass for a while. And the day's over! Another day ahead! :) Our second day isn't that fun. But, I'm so tired parin. I didn't went out of the transient house to stroll but, wait.. As far as I can remember, I went out naman to go online and chat with my friends. :)) Then, few hours later, we have to get ready na to go to the bus station to go home. Tiring yet fun. :) Next on line, HOPEFULLY... is Davao or Cebu! :) (photos will be posted next time.) |
Monday, April 5, 2010
Happy 17th Birthday Bhez! :)
So, I'm back from the outing. I have lots of pictures here. And, not all pictures are good to see. haha. Kbye. :))  me with the birthday boy at the back :D  the place.  our long missed friend. :)) Danielle Villanueva.  kinda tanned. :(   I missed the old days. haha! We're like children anyway. :))  at the pool with everyone else.  with Ms. Lucina. She's on white. That's all for today. I'm really not in the mood. I don't know why. |
Sunday, April 4, 2010
Nothing lasts forever other than memories.
So, I was freakin' excited for the coming outing. I mean, the coming birthday bash of my best friend forever Richard. I thought mom's not going to allow me. But, she does! So, birthday boy went to our house today to confirm all the details and to make paalam to mom for tomorrow's event. My auntie is going to cook Adobo for everybody since birthday boy requested that dish. haha! He's really thrilled and excited. LOL. I think, because, he loves the water so much. Whatever. But, since we're going out to swim, I became excited because he told everybody that we're going to be at 9 waves resort. Dang. He said we're going to Splash mountain instead. I was like: What the hell? Me and my family went there five years ago or six years ago? I think. I was young then. I hate the resort because the water's really HOT. They have hot springs kasi. And you have to pay for additional charges if you want a cold water experience. Anyway, wish us luck tomorrow. I'm going to convince him that we should go to Jed's or Paradise instead. :)) |
Thursday, April 1, 2010
32 months of happiness, trials and DISTANCE.
Vanilla Twilight lyrics Songwriters: Young, Adam; The stars lean down to kiss you And I lie awake and miss you Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere 'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly But I'll miss your arms around me I'd send a postcard to you, dear 'Cause I wish you were here I'll watch the night turn light-blue But it's not the same without you Because it takes two to whisper quietly The silence isn't so bad 'Til I look at my hands and feel sad 'Cause the spaces between my fingers Are right where yours fit perfectly I'll find repose in new ways Though I haven't slept in two days 'Cause cold nostalgia Chills me to the bone But drenched in vanilla twilight I'll sit on the front porch all night Waist-deep in thought because When I think of you I don't feel so alone I don't feel so alone, I don't feel so alone As many times as I blink I'll think of you tonight I'll think of you tonight When violet eyes get brighter And heavy wings grow lighter I'll taste the sky and feel alive again And I'll forget the world that I knew But I swear I won't forget you Oh, if my voice could reach Back through the past I'd whisper in your ear Oh darling, I wish you were here (lyrics courtesy of: www.elyrics.net) I can't help but post the lyrics of the song "Vanilla Twilight". (: Today's a very important day for me, despite the Lenten Season celebration. Hope to see you again, dear :) |
Friday, March 26, 2010
This one's for my past. :)
Hello. I bet you know who you are. I'm pretty happy that I'm over you. :) Thanks for letting me go NIKKO. :) I mean it. Thank you :) I just want to share you the song I was singing months ago. :) Hope you like it. |
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Muling Balikan ang Nakaraan.
 Si John Nikko at si Justine Marie. Okay, j(squared) ang bansag ng mga kaklase ko sa amin. :| Wala lang, I wanna post our picture here. Marami kasing nagtatanong kung mamimiss ko siya. And every time they ask this question, I always went SPEECHLESS. Maybe, because he’s always two steps away from me, when they’re asking that, or just maybe, I don’t wanna rewind and play the memories again. I wanna count on the memories.:) 1. I met him last October 23, 2009. Late na diba? He’s a transferee kasi, from a school in Riyadh. His family went back here in the Philippines for good. Friday yan, tandang tanda ko pa. :p Una siyang pinakilala sa akin ng teacher namin, kasi nga magiging classmate daw namin siya. Then the convo went like this: Teacher: Natatandaan mo pa ba siya Justine? Siya si Nikko, klasmeyt niyo dati. Ako: Ay, hindi po miss eh. 2. Oct. 26, 2009 first day niya sa class. Syempre bago siya, medyo intimidating yung dating sa akin. Parang natatakot ako na ewan. Nagrerecite ako sa english class namin, nakatitig siya. Like whuaaat? May dumi ba ako sa mukha? Ganon. Then, physics time na nung nilapitan ko siya para chikahin. Okay naman pala, mabaet. fine. INSTANT FRIENDS KAMI. =)) Nung araw na yun ko din nalaman na, MAGALING SIYA SA MATH. Idol. 3. October 27, 2009, music class namin, at dahil kinabukasan ay retreat na, walang klase halos the whole day! Sobra sa khyperan kami ni bruha (Joanna), siya, eh nangungulit din, nandito, kwentuhan kami nang kwentuhan, nagkwentuhan na din tungkol sa lovelife at kung ano ano pa. Natatandaan ko, nagkyukyutiks kami ng paa nun ni bru nung lumapit siya para kulitin ako eh. Uwian din nun nung nilapitan niya ako, dumikit pa eh sabay sabing: Nikko: Ang liit mo pala. :)) Oh, diba, loko eh noh. Matangkad kasi eh. 4. October 28-30,2009. Retreat! Yes! Eto na pinakamasaya eh. sobra. kung alam lang nila. :) As usual, mega kwentuhan parin kaming lahat. Nakaupo siya from a distance, sa likod ng bus. Then, nung sessions na, ayun. Super megakwentuhan kami. Ewan ko ba, minsan, lalapit siya para makipagkwentuhan. Minsan, ako naman. Pero, eto talaga pinakamalupit na linyang narinig ko sa kanya na umikot mundo ko: Ako: jam, ang cute naman ng teddy bear mo. Magkano bili mo? Jam: oo nga eh. :) Bigay lang ni Arlo to. 800 ata eh. Ako: Sige, hahanap nga ako ng magbibigay din skin ng ganyan. :)) *tawa* Nikko: Magkano? 800 ba? Makabili nga! *joke* Oha, yan yun. May isa pa: Ako: nikko, kelan birthday mo? Nikko: january 9. Ako: di nga? Nikko: bakit kelan ba birthday mo? Ako: january 11. Nikko: makapagpapalit nga ng birth certificate! HAHAHAAHAH. *tawa* Eto pa isa, Ako: Guys, ano pinakasweet na nagawa niyo sa mga ex niyo? Lemon: Wala pa ako. Di pa nga ako nagkaka-gf eh. Nikko: Ako wala pa. Wala pa kasing nagsasabing sweet ako eh. Ako: Ah, kasi ako, nasusweetan ako sa guy na nagbibigay ng love letter. :)) wala lang, ang sweet. :)) Gusto ko, sa birthday ko, ganun! Nikko: kelan ba birthday mo? pare, may bibigyan ako ng love letter sa januray eh. sino ba may birthday dito sa january? :)) *tawa* *ngiti* May isa pa: Dave: Marunong ka ba mag-gitara? Nikko: Oo! Dave: Marunong ka ba mag drums? Nikko: Oo! *joke lang niya yun* Dave: Oh, pasado ka na! pwede ka na mag-apply! Yan yung resume mo kay justine! Nikko: *tawa* Hirap kasi maghanap ng babaeng single eh. :p *bulong sa akin.* Tapos, nung uwian na namin, ayun na. Katabi ko si tart (jorel), nagkukwentuhan kami, tinatanong kung gusto ko daw ba yung bago smin. SPEECHLESS AKO. Di rin kami nagkatabi sa bus, pero, may usapan pala sila ni nikko, sasabihin niyang positive pag lalapit na crush niya. Eh mahilig daw sa maputi ang loko, so, lahat ng maputi eh tinanong na ni tart kung gusto niya, ayaw DAW. Nung ako na lumapit, sabi nilang dalawa.. POSITIVE. Pagkauwi na pagkauwi ko, kwento talaga ako kay mama, siya agad nakuwento ko. Lakas kasi niya mambwisit sa akin eh. Super. May late night kwentuhan pa kami nun. parehas kaming puyat ni nikko. :)) HAHAHAHA. 5. October 31, 2009: nagsesearch ako sa FB, hahanapin ko sana si Nikko, nang hindi ko namamalayan.. NAKA-ADD na pala siya sa friends ko. Sa sobrang gulat ko eh, tawa nang tawa si mama. Fine. nag-comment at nag-message din ako sa kanya nun,Palitan ng no. Oo! Globe din siya. Edi megatext kami at tawag siya sa akin hanggang nov. 1. 6. Nov.2 hanggang Nov. 5, tawag nang tawag ang loko. 24/7 ata. Okay lang, natutuwa naman akong kausap siya. Oo na, kilig na minsan. 7. Nov. 8, nagtrip kami sa Y!M. Pic ko, avatar niya, pic niya, avatar ko. Nagulantang mga kaklase namin. Kaya, pagdating sa school… 8. Nov. 9: Filipino Class: Ako: Miss, wala nga po akong boypren eh! binibini: aba, sinisigawa mo ako. Ay justine, payag ka niyan, tinatawanan ka ni pangilinan…… Nikko: *tawa* *tawa* KLASE: relasyooooooooonnnnnnn! :)) 9. Simula nun, close na kami lagi. Pag sa Math, tinuturuan niya ako, pag may projects naman, tinutulungan ko siya. Oha, effort diba. Nagkakagalit kami minsan, Oo na. Parang couple. Away-bati kami. bakit ba. :)) Jan din syempre nagsimula yung tawagan namin.. “BABY, BY, SWEETIE, HONEY”. Nagselos din siya sa isang kaklase ko. Nagselos din ako sa tinititigan niya nun. Nagalit siya sa akin, nagalit din ako sa kanya. Pinakilala na rin niya ako sa family niya. Hinatid ako once ng family niya pauwi. Basta ang alam ko nun, sweet kami. Akala nila kami. commitment ang kulang, oo, yun na lang. We held hands together, took pictures together, went out together. Do I have to say na, he stole a kiss from me? Oo na, loser ko. 10. December 15, goodbyes na. Ewan ko ba, yun daw nararamdaman niya. Iyak naman ako nang iyak. Oo na, tanga na. Nag-usap kami nun sa auditorium kasi on-going yung contest ng Christmas Cantata nun eh. Di na daw niya alam gagawin. Nangyari yun dahil sa pride namin. Uhmm, at pagiging MOODY KO. yun daw dahilan. Nikko: tingin ka muna sa akin Ako: Ayoko! Kasi sa tuwing titingnan kita, nasasaktan ako. Nikko: Bakit ako, hindi nasasaktan? Ako: eh manhid ka eh! 11. December 20,2009, hindi na ako nakatiis. Kinausap ko din. Oo na. ako pa din ang loser. usapan namin, yellow kami pareho sa x-mas party. Hindi nangyari. :| Nag-gray ako eh. :P Back in each other’s arm kami. He hugged me, kissed me, at agsabi din siyang namiss niya ako. :”> Syempre, kinilig naman ako, kala ko okay na e. HINDI PA PALA. Nagcompromise na din kami niyan. 1 week naming pipilitin ibalik ang lahat. Pag okay na, fine, aayusin na talaga namin. 12. Alam niyo yun, wala eh. walang nangyari. Wala siyang effort. Oo,wala. nung pasukan na ulit. Hindi na tulad ng dati. Yung tipong pag umaga, wala nang morning beso. wala na lahat. 13. January 9, 2010: Nikko: Sorry ha,di na kita mahal. Sorry kung naparamdam at nasabi ko noon na mahal kita. Di ko naman aakalaing magiging ganito eh. Ngayon kasi, talagang, wala na eh. wala na talaga. Ako: Okay lang. *wala na akong masabi eh. SAKIT kaya.* 14. January 11, birthday ko, binati niya ako, daming bumati. Pero, wala rin, nag-away din kami. Ayoko lang magpretend na okay kami, kahit hindi na talaga. nasasaktan ako eh. Eh, hindi naman niya naiisip yun eh. 15. Hindi na kami nag-usap pagkatapos. ang rude na ng ending. :)) Nag-usap na lang kami nung nawala yung bracelet ko, baka kasi naiwan sa bahay nila, may shooting kasi kami nun. 16. February 13, 2010: JS PROM. First dance ko siya . :) Oo na, kinikileg ako. di naman ako makatingin sa kanya ng diretso. lam mo yun. Yung pain, andito parin. Sweet song yung sinayaw namin. “Angels brought me here”. Pero, di ko mapigilang umiyak pagtapos namin sumayaw. Luluha na eh, papatak na, pinipigilan ko lang, sabi kasi ng classmates ko, sayang make-up! 17. Huling pic na namin ung eto ngayon. March 23, 2010. Wala na akong naramdaman, kahit galit or inis or even saya or even sakit. Ganito pala yung pakiramdam na naka-move on na ako. :) salamat! *Everything’s a lesson to me. Sooner or later I know, we’ll be crossing our roads again. Maybe, we’re not meant to be together. I just realized that we ALMOST HAD EACH OTHER, but then again, he gave up. He was able to move on first, and so, I have to do the same. But then again, he’s my first heart break throughout my senior year :) Years later, I’ll be reading this post again and laugh at whatever things that I wrote! |
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Adieu high school life.
Okay, today's a final farewell for all those people who made an impact all throughout my high school years. To Shaneenah Rae Agustin: My greatest thank you for everything. For being my most wonderful best friend throughout the years. You know my weakest points, you know my pains, and I'm very blessed to have a best friend like you. You've stayed with me through the rains and sunshines of my life. You'll be leaving the Philippines soon, I was hoping that you'll never forget everything that we shared and all the lessons that I taught you. :) Thank you for asking me whether I'm okay or not before I speak. You really know me! Thank you! I will surely miss the times when we spend an afternoon together, laughing at the movie we're watching. haha! And those times, when we shared secrets about boys, and our families. I really enjoyed being with you, and because of you, I know how to be strong enough to face the trials. I promise to be good bespren! :) Love you girl! To Joanna Marie Santos (bru): Thank you for being one of my very best friend throughout our senior year. Take good care of yourself, okay? You're beautiful, inside and out. I was hoping that you're going to finish college with good grades and with a good boyfriend. Punch him once he hurt you again, okay? Thank you for listening to my rantings about him and another him. :) I love you girl. I will always be here for you. To Mary Louise Magnifico, Majelline Erica Yee, Karen Alexandra Palma and Emily Kristine Angsuco: You don't how thankful I am for accepting me on your group. Thanks for the adoption. :)) Because of you, guys, I was able to cope with our section. There is a decrease in the feeling of being out of place. I know, I've been moody but nevertheless, the acceptance you gave, changed me in ways you never thought I would. JAMEL, remember? I've cried on your shoulders, guys, and I would always miss the bonding we had! :) This is the only time that I feel what real friends are. Thank you. To Nomel Lemon: Dude, thank you for listening to all my heartaches. :) Can you still remember when I almost said all the sh/tty words because he broke my heart? Wow, thank you for all the advices, and the patience! To Daniel Den Llorca: Sisterrr, thank you for listening, as always. :) You're such a gentleman. Thank you. To Jerome Simon and Ma. Michelle Placido: Can you still remember the ice cream feast that we had? That's one of the best memory I have from the two of you. Never mind all the sh/ts. :)) To Elis Jelo Cagara: Thanks for dropping me by the "sakayan ng jeep" ;) You don't know how much sadness I feel during that time. I felt out of place without anyone to confide on, right? Thank you. I really appreciate it. And to the others: Thank you so much for appreciating me. That was the most remarkable feeling that almost everyone wants to feel. Thank you for hating me, and making me feel out of place. You don't know how puzzled I was because I feel that no one dares to listen, nor ask me what's wrong. I don't hold grudges. :) I just want you to know that you, guys, made me feel STRONGER. I learned to keep everything to myself. I learned to trust NO ONE but myself. I learned to depend on tinie's power to God's blessing. Thank you for the bad times and judgments you gave. I wasn't able to be on a close bond with all of you, because you made me feel alone. But nevertheless, I'm still happy because I met wonderful people like you who gave me different lessons that I actually learned. For those who gave me heartbreaks, heartaches, headaches: I'm better off without you, guys. :) I'm really happy that I met people like you, and so, on the coming years ahead, I'll be good in the choices that I will make. For the fun, joy, laughter everyone gave: I would never forget you guys. I've been happppppy. I really was. I was once moody and unpredictable and I know, there's still a part of me that yo, guys, don't understand. And yet, I don't force you to do it. :) Somehow, beyond every laughter there's always the pain that I keep on hiding :) Till we meet again. |
Friday, March 5, 2010
It's not desperation.
Lately, I've been criticized by my friends about not having someone special in my life. Haha! They think that's pretty unusual for me. But anyway, I think, I don't have the need or urge in having someone to call me "baby, sweetie, or even honey". I'm happily living my life to the fullest, and sometimes, feeling unappreciated by the people around me. Sometimes, I wanted someone to depend on. I wanted someone to hug, to kiss and cuddle with. But then, I realized that life's very wonderful. Life isn't really perfect, and so, the man I've been dreaming to be with hasn't found me yet. But nevertheless, I'm happy, even though there's no one to greet me with "i love you" every morning. :) And, for you information, I still have some qualities here for my man:
I'm quite perfectionist. And I used to long for a PERFECT relationship. But then again, I know that isn't possible, right? Above all, I would rather settle with a guy who knows my worth, appreciate me and love me more than anyone or anything else in this world. :) |
Saturday, February 27, 2010
A pinch in my heart.
This is one of my favorites. :) The story is similar to me and rocker. And this one, still makes me cry every now and then. :) While this one is the latest, of course, my tita and I, went to see this movie! :) The story is reaaaaally breathtaking. I seriously want a sequel of this. :) |
Thursday, February 25, 2010
I finally got it.
 Talumpatian's over. I finally got it. I won. Yes, I did. I won the champion title! Ohgosh. :) This is ultimately LOVE. :) This is our group picture after the contest proper. Thank you Lord! >:D< |
Saturday, February 13, 2010
Junior-Senior Promenade.
 Here's a picture of me and Daniel Llorca, my sister :) (we call each other as sistersss. haha.) This is how I look on our Junior-Senior Promenade. :) I wore a black cocktail dress from Occasions and I super love the shoes! HAHAHA.! Swear! Anyway, everything's fun. :) Can you still recall do-you-like-me-dude? He was my first dance. Uhmm. I'm not really OKAY that time. Because, I know, I'm about to cry. Tears are falling on my face. But, anyway, everything's over. I wanted to move on! I won't cry over him again. :) Please. This would be the last time, okay? He's not worth it. I knew it. You're not worth my tears. You're not worth my pains. :) I wouldn't even wish to be friends with you, okay? I'm done and happppppyyyy WITHOUT you. :) |
Thursday, February 4, 2010
Happiness, Crap, and shi/s.
Wednesday Crap and Happiness. My wednesday is quite a mixture of crap and happiness. Why? Here's my list. CRAP: 1. I lost my gold bracelet. And you know what? It's not the "gold" thing that counts. It's the sentimental value in it. :| It was my grandma's first graduation gift! She gave it to me when I graduated from grade school. I have it since I was 12! 2. We had a shooting at do-you-like-me-dude's house. I felt out of place. YEAH. Really. Crap. :| 3. I felt out of place when I'm seated on our classroom. I dunno why. Maybe because I don't feel like being like them. I mean, I don't feel like kidding around. Maybe, I'm too serious. Am I? HAPPINESS: 1. I'm starting to be patient nowadays. (: 2. Talumpatian's been nagging me. :D And it puts the enjoyment! So, I have a good time memorizing the talumpati. :D THURSDAY shi/s Aside from the lost bracelet of mine, auntie texted do-you-like-me-dude. And today, I told him about my lost bracelet, but you know.. he found nothing. But, what's really putting the crap in me is the accident that happened a while ago, just before I go home. I WAS HARDLY HIT WITH A BOOK ON MY FACE. IMAGINE HOW THICK THE BOOK IS! DARIEL BELARMINO should be given a sanction for it. I know, it's an accident. But see? I got bruised and there's a swelling bump on my face! And it's all because of their stupid harutan, whatever makes them immature.. It's all shi/s. Really! My classmates and I got scolded by our teacher. Because of that stupid LCD projector I borrowed yesterday. I thought (he/she: whatever fits you) returned the LCD projector. WTH. And the last person on my list. Lately, I've been annoyed about (his/her: whatever fits you). Why? Simply because she's overpowering. Cut the crap dear. Make your own thing. Tell me first before changing everything. And BTW dear, make your own theater. |
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
Praise and Chances.
Monday Chances. Today makes me happy. I've gotten my piece already! Hopefully, I will be able to memorize everything. :) Thank you Lord! And, I realized that.. "If something's lost, another thing will be given back. And this time, It's much better than before." -tinie. Tuesday Praises. Today is happiness. Today, I realized that even a single praise can make a person happy. :) "Ang laki na ng pinagbago ng ugali mo, kesa dati, (insert my nickname here)." -credits to Ate Maj for saying this thing. :) Just like what I've said before, simple things can make me happy. :) And so, she did. |
Monday, January 11, 2010
GG! Gorgeous Geek at sixteen
Today's a very special day. Yes. I just turned sixteen. I would like to say my sweetest gratitude to the following people who greeted me today: From my Teentalk family: Tricia Lee Pamplona Jean Jeanne Mabutas Aerine Salamanca Ate Maan Madriaga Jona Fernandez Kuya Marion Claudio Pierru Cardenas Granny Jhajha School friends and peeps: Joanna Santos Jesus Madrid Nurzhia Mukaram Jamin Gascon Reina Michelle Tabalno Kathleen Paltao Shaneenah Rae Agustin (bespren) Joanna Lois Tumadlas Abraham Villano Nomel Lemon Lester Sabarillo Czarina Santiago Myluck Franchesca Ramos Mary Louise Magnifico John Nikko Pangilinan :p WHAAAT? :)) Ms. Maria Luvis Asenita (my adviser) :) Online friends and people: Ralph Gaebriel Gragasin Levie Johnson Gabales-Millamena Edrielle Dualin Chezka Mariz Guevarra Luitor Lu Rommel Malgapo Carina Reoligio Donita Rose Pagsanjan Mahloid Baldeo Josepht Cagara Ariane Cez Gonzales Sharmaine Lumauan Dan Paolo Soriano Manilyn Lauzon Nerie Istarpish :p Brian Mactal Allison Silvestre Tom Alain Gacusan-Dumot Ian Zuniga :) Kuya Jose Dennio Lim Jr. Family: Mama Tita Relatives: Jommel Pacheco Abigail Pacheco Close Family Friend: Dr. Lita Dionisio-Carpena ------------------- I wasn't expecting some of them to greet me. They really made my day. They were like cakes and pastas. I received my all time favorite TIGER stuffed toy from my dearest bestfriend-Shaneenah Agustin. Thank you! Someone greeted me too, but he made me pissed. Yeah, really! But you know, I haven't forgive him. Whatever. I received a reallly reallly awesome birthday greetings from Rocker's mom. (: Sweet. She really love me like her own daughter! :) And, I received another greetings from my dear adviser. Oh. HOW SWEEET. :) We didn't really cooked anything for this day. I don't receive any gifts from my parents. I didn't even asked anything from them. Sad, yet that's happiness. :) The feeling that those unexpected people greeted me was the best birthday gift I ever received from them. THESE GREETINGS ARE BLESSINGS. :) |
Friday, January 8, 2010
Some things never change, no matter how many rejections, there are.
My special day is like three days away. I haven't got any birthday greetings from anyone lately, not until someone special sent me a message this afternoon (: It's been such a long time since I was able to talk to this person. I find it hard to communicate with him since everything's quite a distraction. OHGOD. Probably, I could talk to him again when he's back here again. I think, this is the most special birthday message and birthday gift I ever received. :) Thank you Lord! |
